"...but I'd wait a million more for you..."

I’ve waited a hundred years
But I’d wait a million more for you
Nothing prepared me for
What the privilege of being yours would do

If I had only felt the warmth within your touch
If I had only seen how you smile when you blush
Or how you curl your lip when you concentrate enough
Well I would have known
What I was living for all along
What I’ve been living for

Your love is my turning page
Where only the sweetest words remain
Every kiss is a cursive line
Every touch is a redefining phrase

I surrender who I’ve been for who you are
For nothing makes me stronger than your fragile heart
If I had only felt how it feels to be yours
Well I would have known
What I’ve been living for all along
What I’ve been living for

Though we’re tethered to the story we must tell
When I saw you, well I knew we’d tell it well
With a whisper we will tame the vicious seas
Like a feather bringing kingdoms to their knees

Prioritas Keberapa

Untuk post kali ini akan gw tulis dalam bahasa Indonesia (karena otak lagi lebih produktif dalam bahasa Indonesia -- alasan macam apa ini? Hahaha). Tapi seperti biasa, pasti ada sisipan-sisipan bahasa Inggrisnya, jadi mohon dimaklumi.

Jadi.... yang mau gw ceritain kali ini adalah pemikiran yang terpicu oleh saat dimana salah satu relatives gw meng-add gw di Blackberry Messenger (maap ya eike masih pake BBM). Dan seperti biasa selalu diawali dengan basa-basi. She asked how I'm doing, whether I still remember who she is or not, bla bla bla, dan sampai akhirnya keluarlah statement ini... "ade udah gede ya. Pasti sekarang udah punya pacar..."


"...udah gede ya. Pasti sekarang udah punya pacar..."

Somehow, kalimat itu tuh meng-imply, kalo udah gede, kita harus punya pacar (well that's how I perceived it, but I may be wrong too).  Dan pada saat itu juga, I went to antara kasian dan kesal karena ternyata masih ada orang yang berpola pikir seperti itu. Pola pikir seperti apa? Seakan-akan tujuan kita menjadi lebih tua (atau mungkin mereka pikir lebih dewasa) adalah hanya untuk mencari pasangan. Gw ga mau munafik by saying I don't want a boyfriend. I do. Tapi I know, at this age, hal itu bukanlah prioritas utama gw (dan pada saat yang bersamaan itu mungkin menjadi prioritas utama orang lain). Masih ada lebih banyak hal yang menjadi prioritas yang lebih utama di bandingkan hanya mencari pacar. Keluarga, studi, karir, semua itu harusnya datang sebelum pasangan.

I know I've talked about this a million times, tapi itu karena gw mau meyakinkan kalian semua yang membaca ini that it is perfectly okay to be single! Ga ada yang perlu kalian takutin & raguin hanya karena kalian single. Bahkan harusnya kalian berbahagia karena kalian masih diberikan waktu yang jauh lebih banyak untuk kalian membuat karya.

Jadi, pacaran prioritas keberapa Fem? Honestly, I don't know exactly where it is on my priority list right now. Tapi yang pasti, hal itu bukanlah fokus gw saat ini.

When I say...

When I say ... "I am a Christian" 
I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin'." 
I'm whispering "I was lost, 
Now I'm found and forgiven." 

When I say ... "I am a Christian" 
I don't speak of this with pride. 
I'm confessing that I stumble 
and need Christ to be my guide. 

When I say ... "I am a Christian" 
I'm not trying to be strong. 
I'm professing that I'm weak 
And need His strength to carry on. 

When I say ... "I am a Christian" 
I'm not bragging of success. 
I'm admitting I have failed 
And need God to clean my mess. 

When I say ... "I am a Christian" 
I'm not claiming to be perfect, 
My flaws are far too visible 
But, God believes I am worth it. 

When I say ... "I am a Christian" 
I still feel the sting of pain. 
I have my share of heartaches 
So I call upon His name. 

When I say ... "I am a Christian" 
I'm not holier than thou, 
I'm just a simple sinner 
Who received God's good grace, somehow.

- Maya Angelou

Role of Fathers in Family & National Development

- key to national success
- oldest human institution on earth
- God's ideal institution
- cure for all social psychological emotional and spiritual ills of our community
- foundational unit of development
- prototype of society
- society is reflection of family
- purpose of family is to secure society
- family is not product of state
- sanctity of family is bedrock for human survival
Proverbs 24:3-5
By wisdom a house is built,
and by understanding it is established;

by knowledge the rooms are filled
with all precious and pleasant riches.
A wise man is full of strength,
and a man of knowledge enhances his might,
★ We need to be full of knowledge, always informed. And we need to understand and apply that knowledge. Applying knowledge that we understand is an act of wisdom.
Exodus 12:2-3
“This month shall be for you the beginning of months. It shall be the first month of the year for you. Tell all the congregation of Israel that on the tenth day of this month every man shall take a lamb according to their fathers 'houses, a lamb for a household.
1 Timothy 5:8
But if anyone does not provide for his relatives, and especially for members of his household, he has denied the faith and is worse than an unbeliever.
★ We can't substitute worship for our family! Why does God care a lot about family? Because it's the foundation of everything!
Deuteronomy 11:18-21
“You shall therefore lay up these words of mine in your heart and in your soul, and you shall bind them as a sign on your hand, and they shall be as frontlets between your eyes. You shall teach them to your children, talking of them when you are sitting in your house, and when you are walking by the way, and when you lie down, and when you rise. You shall write them on the doorposts of your house and on your gates, that your days and the days of your children may be multiplied in the land that the Lord swore to your fathers to give them, as long as the heavens are above the earth.
Purpose of family:
- socialization
- civilization
- preservation 
- identification 
- procreation
- classification
- incubation
- accommodation
- liberation
- transformation

Products of family:
- Responsibility
- Accountability
- Respectability
- Morality
- Communication
- Values
- Emotional shelter
- A natural psychological incubator 
- Self concept and worth
- Convictions and beliefs
Deuteronomy 4:9-10
“Only take care, and keep your soul diligently, lest you forget the things that your eyes have seen, and lest they depart from your heart all the days of your life. Make them known to your children and your children's children— how on the day that you stood before the Lord your God at Horeb, the Lord said to me, ‘Gather the people to me, that I may let them hear my words, so that they may learn to fear me all the days that they live on the earth, and that they may teach their children so. ’
★ Role of the family is to preserve generation. And that the foundation of family is male - man - the father! However though...


If you want to know what's important to God, study what satan focuses on!

Why does satan wants to destroy the men? Because satan knows that if he destroys the foundation, he will automatically destroy the whole building - if satan destroys men, the whole family will be destroyed, and if the whole family is destroyed, so is the society, and if the society is destroyed, therefore the whole nations is destroyed too.
Exodus 20:12
“Honor your father and your mother, that your days may be long in the land that the Lord your God is giving you.
Ephesians 6:2-3
“Honor your father and mother” (this is the first commandment with a promise), “that it may go well with you and that you may live long in the land.”
★ Honor what? Honor the position that he has! God did not say honour your perfect father or honour your loving father, He simply said honour your father. Therefore no matter how your father is we still have to honour him for being a father. Why father? Because God sees fatherhood as the solution to all human personal social national problems.
Malachi 4:6
And he will turn the hearts of fathers to their children and the hearts of children to their fathers, lest I come and strike the land with a decree of utter destruction.”
Psalms 68:5-6
Father of the fatherless and protector of widows
is God in his holy habitation.

God settles the solitary in a home;
he leads out the prisoners to prosperity,
but the rebellious dwell in a parched land.
★ FATHER - Abba - Pater
Father defined:
- source
- nourisher
- sustainer / provider
- protector
- progenitor
- founder (foundation)
- author / maker

Now ladies, if you're looking for a husband, make sure he does all this:
HE WORKS, before God gives him a woman!

Land of Smiles Part 1 - Santorini Park & Swiss Sheep Farm

As some of you might know, I just came back from sisterly vacation to Bangkok. Me and my sister stayed in Bangkok for 6 days, and although Bangkok is kinda like Jakarta, I still enjoyed this vacation. But anyways enough with the blabber, let's just talk about what I did in Bangkok :)

I left Jakarta at around 4PM and arrived in Bangkok at around 8PM. When we reach the airport, I had to fill in the immigration form, but not sure how, the Suvarnabhumi airport actually ran out of the immigration forms and so we had to look around for it first and it took quite awhile. Done with the immigration, we both went out to buy SIM cards. We bought the DTAC Happy Tourist SIM, it costs 299 ฿ (that's like IDR 100.000) for 1-week of unlimited internet and 100 ฿ free calls. By that time it was already 8.30ish and previously we had plan to grab some dinner near the hostel but then we thought it was too late, because shops in Bangkok close pretty early! And so we finally headed to our hostel called Boxpackers Hostel straight away. We took the Airport Rail Link to the Phaya Thai BTS station, cause that's what the direction in the website said. However though, it turns out that it is much closer if we went down on the next BTS station which is the Ratchathewi BTS Station.

On the next day, we went to Santorini Park at Cha-am. We took the public van from the just outside the Victory Monument BTS Station at 160 ฿ for one-way trip (just tell the driver you want to go to Santorini Park). It took quite awhile to get to Santorini Park, approximately 2 hours I think. But the 2-hour trip was definitely worth it. Santorini Park was a really beautiful place, although it was very hot. It really looked like the real Santorini in Greece (and yes, it makes me wanna go to Greece even more!). There were lost of places for us tourists to take pictures at, that's what I like the most. However though, it's pretty darn annoying how we have to pay additional fees to go on the rides! Pft. But owell, pictures taken there turned out really good.

Finally, after having lunch and taking loads of pictures, we then went to Swiss Sheep Farm. The Swiss Sheep Farm is located just across the Santorini Park, won't take longer than 30-minutes. The entrance fee to the farm was also 50 ฿. Inside there are not only sheeps but also ponies, horses, chickens, and also ducks (or maybe geese). And you get to feed the sheeps for free! YAY! Who doesn't love free stuff? :p

I actually wanted to milk the lamb but we have to pay additional fee, and I realized that they stink just after I fed them so I decided not to! :p So then we went to arcade booths and played some games. The result? Embarassing! We didn't win anything because our skills were nowhere near good! Hahaha.. Especially the bull-riding game. We didn't win, we became dizzy and our thighs were aching after it, but it was definitely fun (the other tourists actually watched us played and that made everything even more embarassing! >.<).

We then ended our day in Cha-am by buying my friend a fridge-magnet for her mother and a keychain for my mom and again we took the public van to the BTS Station. Unfortunately though, on our way back home, Bangkok was raining and so we walking under the rain and was soaking wet and we were hungry! Poor us. So instead of going back to our hostel, we decided to grab some dinner at Siam Paragon. However though, since we were wet and Siam Paragon was kinda cold, I couldn't hold it I just had to buy a jacket and finally got this pretty white jacket with blue flowers at UNIQLO. Straight after buying the jacket we then grabbed our dinner and after that we went back to our hostel. Not bad for a first day right? We'll see you on the next post! :)

Hello Alexa!

 Yesterday I received a packaged from my mom. I thought she was only sending me my clothes that I left in Bali, but it turns out that there was an additional package inside it. And I found this box, inside was this beautiful watch! My mom gave me an Alexandre Christie watch, because I asked her to buy me a watch that time, but the one I wanted was sold out /sob/
Now this watch she gave is just as beautiful. Love the style, love the color too! Thanks mom :)
Oh, and since it's Alexandre Christie, I decided to name it Alexa, hihi..


This morning I went swimming with my girls, Ghea and Odi. I figured that I needed a short break from all the exam-stress, and so we swam. We also took underwater pictures and made stupid videos. Anyways, here's what we did.

All were taken using my iPod Touch

Sun Rai - San Fransisco Street

Chrisya Sabaru's Blog

I revamped my sister's blog. Quite happy with the result!

Selamat Jalan

Ga bisa kudengar lagi 
lengkingan suaramu saat bernyanyi,
kekuatan intonasimu saat berdoa.
Ga bisa kurasakan lagi 
genggaman jabatanmu kala bertemu,
tepukan sahabat di pundakku.
Ga bisa kulihat lagi
permainan gitarmu di gereja anak,
tatapan mata seorang bapa pada GenTa.
Ga bisa kutimpali lagi…..
candamu yg selalu gemuruh, 
Ga ada lagi tawamu yg renyah, 
gelakmu yg kadang kepingkel-pingkel….
Ga ...ga pada lagi semua itu.... !!! 
Semua tinggal kenangan manis
Indah ...terasa indah bergaul denganmu.
Kami mengasihi & merindukanmu
Slamat jalan, sahabatku, Martin Sabaru. 
Lulus sudah perjalanan hidupmu dengan Cum Laude

poem made by Tante Maria for my dad

Happy Father's Day Daddy
I miss you ♥

[Indonesian] Where should I go?

Ok, untuk kali gw bakal post dalam bahasa pertama gw, karena gw lagi males untuk translate ke Inggris (tapi yakin banget sih pasti bakal tetep ada sedikit kalimat-kalimat dalam bahasa Inggris). Anyways, jadi yang mau gw bahas hari ini apa sih? Well ini adalah suatu hal yang tiba-tiba muncul di pikiran gw.

Pernah ga sih kalian tuh bingung banget tentang suatu pilihan? Pernah ga kalian ada di situasi dimana lo lagi punya mimpi besar, cuman kayaknya lo ga bisa atau ga punya resources untuk mencapai mimpi kalian itu?  Gw sering banget. Waktu gw mau masuk kuliah, tentu aja gw pengen masuk uni ini uni itu, cuman emang keadaan finansial waktu itu ga memungkinkan buat gw masuk ke uni yang keren banget (karena yang keren itu biasanya mahal). Dan jangan salah artiin keren, keren disini maksud gw itu adalah keren dimana kampusnya menyediakan kurikulum yang bertaraf internasional, yang image nya udah cukup diketahui dan emang istilahnya jebolan uni itu tuh pasti bakal dapat kerja deh. So there I am, with my dreams, pengen masuk disana sini, dengan satu uni yang jadi target utama gw.

Terus udah di keadaan dengan banyaknya pilihan, kita seringkali jadi bingung, mau ngikutin kemauan utama kita ato serahin ke Tuhan. Seringkali sih kita bilang, terserah Tuhan deh mau bawa kemana,  tapi sadar ga sadar, dibalik perkataan itu sebenarnya ada sebuah pesan dimana kita sebenarnya mau bilang gini, Tuhan gw mau kesini nih, tolong buat jadi nyata yah. PADAHAL, tujuan atau target utama kita itu BUKAN rencana Tuhan.

Kenapa? Karena kita keseringan ngelihat dengan kacamata manusia. Maksudnya apa? Maksudnya adalah kita terlalu sering melihat dengan cara pandang manusia, kita melihat penilaian manusia. Karena dunia ini mengatakan A itu yang terbaik, jadi kita juga mau dapetin A. But it doesn't work that way with God.

Tuhan punya rencana yang jauh lebih indah dibandingkan dengan rencana manusia! Apa yang menurut manusia terbaik, belum tentu yang terbaik untuk kita menurut Tuhan. Emang yang bakal kita dapetin itu bisa dinilai manusia sebagai hal yang biasa-biasa aja, nilainya masih ga bagus-bagus banget. Tapi rencana Tuhan ga berhenti disitu. Hidup kita udah dirancang sedemikian rupa oleh Tuhan, bahkan sampai nafas terakhir kita udah Tuhan rancang. Dan gw yakin banget, segala sesuatu pasti dimulai dari hal yang kecil, hal yang sederhana, hal yang dinilai manusia sebagai sesuatu yang sama sekali ga wah, tapi dibelakang itu semua, ada rancangan yang lebih mulia.

Terus gimana dong? Kalo emang kayak gitu, apa yang seharusnya gw lakuin? My answer would be, fast, pray and ask Him! Dan sebenarnya ini adalah point terpenting. Kenapa? Kadang kita cuma bilang aja, terserah Tuhan mau dibawa kemana, tapi kita ga pernah actually berdoa dan nanya ke Tuhan, Dia maunya bawa kita kemana. Bener ga? Kita cuma bilang doang di mulut kita terserah Tuhan, tapi kita ga pernah bener-bener berdoa dan nanya ke Tuhan! Dan kenapa puasa? kata om Ronny D. Simeon, puasa adalah saat dimana kita menempatkan diri kita pada frekuensi yang sama dengan Tuhan supaya kita bisa mendengar apa kata Tuhan.

Kita ini bukan tuhan, jadi kita ga bakal bisa tahu apa mau Tuhan kalo kita ga tanya sama Dia! Tanya deh, pasti dijawab, ga mungkin engga. Jalan Tuhan itu ga ada yang tahu arahnya kemana, terus lewat mana. Rencana Tuhan itu kayak sebuah petualangan menjelajahi hal baru. Jadi daripada kita ngerasain apa yang udah orang lain rasain, kenapa ga kita ikutin apa kata Tuhan, dan ngerasain hal-hal yang belum pernah orang lain rasain sebelumnya.

Jadi, gw ga boleh bermimpi gitu? No. Feel free to have big dreams! Tapi inget, jangan paksa Tuhan untuk me-realize mimpi kita, yang ternyata bukan rencanaNya. Just tell Him what we want. Dan ingat, selalu bersyukur dengan apapun yang Ia berikan. Apa yang dinilai manusia ga berharga, bisa jadi adalah suatu hal yang sangat berharga bagi Tuhan.

happy sunday all.
love, femme.

Kingdom Restored

Perintah berkerajaan muncul setelah pemberkatan nikah Adam dan Hawa. Everybody in this world was born to fulfill an assignment.
And God said, Let us make man in our image, after our likeness:and let them have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over the cattle, and over all the earth, and over every creeping thing that creepeth upon the earth.
Genesis 1:26
Tuhan punya tujuan yang mulia buat setiap dari kita.
Jesus' purpose was twofold:
1. To proclaim the arrival of God's Kingdom
From church-mentality to kingdom-mentality.
2. Providing the entry to the kingdom through His blood
From that time Jesus began to preach, and to say, Repent:for the kingdom of heaven is at hand.
Matthew 4:17
Chapter 3
 In those days came John the Baptist, preaching in the wilderness of Judaea, And saying, Repent ye:for the kingdom of heaven is at hand. For this is he that was spoken of by the prophet Esaias, saying, The voice of one crying in the wilderness, Prepare ye the way of the Lord, make his paths straight.
Matthew 3:1-3
Metanoia: change the way of thinking
The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, because he hath anointed me to preach the gospel to the poor; he hath sent me to heal the brokenhearted, to preach deliverance to the captives, and recovering of sight to the blind, to set at liberty them that are bruised, To preach the acceptable year of the Lord.
Luke 4:18-19
Urapan diberi dengan tujuan. Preach good news to the poor.
What Jesus did was actually bringing us back to the Kingdom of God!

I choose

No matter how many times you've been stabbed, beaten, hurt... You are the one who determines you're next step, to keep going and trying, or to stay where you are and suffer.

Well I choose to keep going, let myself be strong.

TOP Girl 2013 THEFACESHOP Indonesia

Day 02 - Where I'd Like To Be In 10 Years

10 years from now huh? That means I'll be at the age of 30... I wish to be:

1. Graduated from both my Bachelor's Degree and my Master's Degree - well I counted that by the age of 22 I'll be graduating from my Bachelor's Degree. And then I'm gonna go straight off to take my Master's Degree in Australia, Switzerland or Canada.

2. Working in IT-IS-Biz Consulting Firm, outside of Indonesia of course - right now I'm planning to settle my life after the whole tertiary education in Australia. But then I'm also interested in living Europe.. Sooooo, I don't know. I may have plans now, but I'll let God take me wherever He wants me to be at.

3. Married! - Yea, I'm planning to marry at the age of 25. Hahaha.. But we'll see about this one. Hopefully I can meet with the right guy at the right timing :D
photo courtesy of Chrisya KF
4. Owning a cafe! - I definitely have to make this dream of mine come through, and I hope this could be like a family-business. Although I don't really know the concept of the cafe just yet, but I really want to own one.

5. A mother to at least one child - Yep, since I am hoping I will be married by age of 25, so I'm hoping that by the age of 30 I will have one child already. It doesn't matter whether it's a boy or a girl, I just want a child of my own. Definitely can't wait! Hahaha..

BINUS Jazz 2013!

Last Saturday, we finally held the BINUS Jazz 2013 event. And I must say I am a happy and a proud Project Manager. I felt like my hard work finally paid off. The event was a big success (well that's how I see it and according to what some people say :p) There were around 400 people coming to the event and the vibe was real good!

However, I know that this all won't be a success without the help of these people:

1. God - of course God would be the first one I thank, for bringing me this far, for not letting breakdown and always giving me strength when I'm about to loose it

2. Daddy - although you're no longer there to see me prepare and held this event, I know that you're looking at me from heaven. And I know that you're happy that I have made this achievement

3. Mommy - for always reminding me of my health, I needed that

4. Sissy - For always being there when I needed a getaway

5. My fellow Executive Committee and Coordinators, Echa, Della, Fallen, Eka, Feby, Hilda, Ka Vanda, Wina, Rhesa - You guys are definitely the best support I can ever have
BINUS Jazz 2013 Committee
6. My advisors - You guys definitely helped me made decisions and guided me through out the preparation

7. The whole committee - Although some of you guys gave me headaches but you guys were awesome
And all the others whom I can't mention one by one here. Thank you all so much!

(left to right) Dennis Junio, someone, Echa Soemantri, Cahyo, Matthew Sayersz, Me, someone, Dani, Eka, someone


As I have told you guys, I was away to Singapore from the 12th til the 17th for APEX Global Case Challenge. There isn't much to say, just how grateful I am to be a part of this, meeting great people, experiencing new things, learnt new lessons. And I must say, APEX you make me love Singapore!


You know someone's changed when you don't spend that much quality time together anymore

-Femme LHS

Good News!!

So... from late February until early April I went through this candidate selection for a competition in Singapore this May. At first I wasn't really sure about it, whether I'm capable and actually a perfect fit (or at least suited) candidate to represent my university, but then I thought rather than regretting seeing someone else go might as well just give my best to it.

From individual selection until group selection I managed to pass all of it. And finally it came down to the very last selection... At that moment I realized that I wanted to be a part of the competition and as a representative for my uni real bad, so I tried giving the best I could (although I know I'm not yet like the senior ones). Then it came down to the part where we had to wait for the announcement. Definitely jitters! But at the same time the desire to be a part of it becomes stronger. At that time all I could do was pray that I can pass the last round of selection.

Well I guess my prayer was heard by God and...

This is quiet a big thing for me, as I am actually a newbie in this field, but now I'm competing with other universities from around the world. Thrilling much! Not forgetting to mention that last year our senior won 2nd place, so I assume the uni wants us to at least be at the same place or even better FIRST PLACE. (´_`。)

But whatever. Just gotta give our best anyway, and beat the other univs! And definitely wish us luck for the competition!

P.S. I will be leaving with Ka Cynthia and Ka Kalyana, since we are competing in groups :)

What you see isn't always what you get

A few days ago, one of my friend asked me a question. The question was that, "do you still think about your dad?" And my answer was, "yea, definitely. Almost all the time. Why?"

Now here's the kinda-shocking-but-actually-not-really statement that my friend said, "you don't seem like someone who've lost their father."

I don't know for sure what my friend has in mind, but what I'm assuming is that my friend sees the joyful and super-happy faces of mine almost everyday, and so my friend thinks that I'm not thinking about my dad.

Well actually. I do think about my dad a lot, I remember the days where I used to hug his big belly, how I used to sleep next to him and listening the beat of his heart, how I hold his hand while he drives, I remember it all. And now that he's no longer here on earth, I do feel that I'm missing him.

Loosing him may have changed my life, but one thing for sure is that, him leaving doesn't mean that I have to let go of my joy. Infact, why should I? I know that he's in a better place now, I know that he's with God, so why should I be sad right?

All I wanna point out here is that, just because I can still smile and laugh, that doesn't mean I've forgotten about my dad. No. I just know that he's in a better place, that's why I smile.

And dad, I do miss you, and I will always miss you.

-your one and only bonjer

We the Indonesians would say, PECAAAAAAHHHHH


A small message I want to pass on to you guys. If you seriously can't stand the anger, at least try not to express it in social media networks. The impact of it can be very serious.

Keep the long hair, or go for short?

Day 01 - How Single Life Is

I have been single for years. And I realized that being single wasn't so bad after all. I also learn a lot from being single. Many people think the adolescent years, or during your teenage years, you should be having fun, having boyfriends or girlfriends, hang out with your friends, and things like that. And when you have done that, that's when they say that you are enjoying life. But I personally think that that is a very narrow way to think of how you should live your life.

I often hear girls complain whenever they are in the single status, because they think when they're single their popularity degrades, they are no longer the "it" girls, or in Indonesia they would say, "Lo ga gaul!" Well, after being single for years (in my teenage years) I realize that this is a totally wrong perception or mindset. There is nothing wrong with being single. Yes you might feel lonely at sometime, you might be jealous of your friends who have those special person who supports in them in what they do, but don't we remember that even before we met our boyfriends and girlfriends, even before we met our friends, our family is already there first for us. They're the ones who always stand up for us, through the goods and the bad. This is actually why I enjoy being a single girl up until now (and still committing to be one until I graduate from my bachelor's degree).

But the question that pops in your mind would probably be, why remain single when can be in a  relationship? That's a nice questions! Well let me tell you why

1. You have more time to spend with your family -The best thing that you can spend on your family is TIME. My own principle of life is that spend as much as time with your family, because you don't when you're going to be separated from them. I have been living with this principle even before my dad passed away, which is why I'm more of a home-person or family-oriented person.

2. You can try new things - Maybe some of you who are reading this second reason is thinking, "well we can try new things with our boyfriend/girlfriend," but the question I want to ask you back is that, is your boyfriend/girlfriend seriously willing to try those new things with you? What if they hate that new thing you want to try? See, you don't know for sure. And rather than being in uncertainty of whether you're going to be in accordance with your partner, I suggest you try things by yourself. Right?

3. You have more time to do things of your own - During our adolescent years, we need to be able to do a lot of things, and I believe that we can only achieve it if we don't spend too much time being with your boyfriend/girlfriend (especially when you have an overly attached boyfriend/girlfriend, definitely UGH!). For example like me right now, I get to join a lot of organizations and clubs and through that I can experience lots of things that maybe I won't be experiencing if I had a boyfriend. And I do believe it is not a waste of time to actually be a part of all these organizations, since there are so many things that aren't taught theoretically and can only be gained by doing it.

4. You don't want to go through broken-heart moments hundred times - As far as I know, many of the girls who go through break-ups takes quite some time to "recover". But my point is, if you could safe your heart from hundreds of break-ups then why not? Because crying for a guy who will not be our wedded husband is a definite waste of time (but this doesn't apply to our father, because girls, he will always be your number one man! :) ).

Well I hope those reasons above might convince to spending your time to yourself first~ Do leave a comment about what you think personally on being single.

Femme 😘
No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.
1 Corinthians 10:13

Menikmati Kebaikan Tuhan - Sunday Service - 17.03.2013

Isaiah 55:1-3
“Come, everyone who thirsts,
come to the waters;
and he who has no money,
come, buy and eat!
Come, buy wine and milk
without money and without price.
Why do you spend your money for that which is not bread,
and your labor for that which does not satisfy?
Listen diligently to me, and eat what is good,
and delight yourselves in rich food.
Incline your ear, and come to me;
hear, that your soul may live;
and I will make with you an everlasting covenant,
my steadfast, sure love for David.

Men are never satisfied.
1 John 3:20
for whenever our heart condemns us, God is greater than our heart, and he knows everything.
God is bigger than anything in this world.
Psalms 119:97
Oh how I love your law!
It is my meditation all the day.
Renungkan firman Tuhan sampai kita mengerti.
Romans 1:16
The Righteous Shall Live by Faith
For I am not ashamed of the gospel, for it is the power of God for salvation to everyone who believes, to the Jew first and also to the Greek.
The word of the Lord is our strength. Who can enjoy the goodness of the Lord:
1. People who are hungry and thirsty of the word of the Lord
2. People who can give thanks to the Lord
Orang yang bersungut-sungut tidak bisa melihat masa depan.
3. People who put aside their weight and sins
Ephesians 5:20
giving thanks always and for everything to God the Father in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ,
Hebrews 12:1
Chapter 12
Jesus, Founder and Perfecter of Our Faith
Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us,
Menyesal = membenci diri sendiri dan berbuat lagi
Bertobat = berbalik san meninggalkan. METANOIA

30-Day challenge!

Well hello lovely people. How have you all been doing? I hope you are well. As for me personally, I'm still trying to strengthen myself as a few weeks ago my father passed away, and believe it or not he passed away right on Valentine's Day. It was all a shock for us, for me personally. Because there was no sign of him being very ill or anything, and I remembered just the day before he went away I was still on the phone with him, talking about my exam. But I guess only God's will that can happen in our life. And that it was God's will for my dad to go back to heaven.
taken in Venezia, 2003
Anyways, I am here to give myself something to do, and so I'm going to do a 30-Day Challenge, the Blog Edition! *woohoo* So what is the 30-Day Challenge? For those of you who don't know, 30-Day Challenge is basically challenges that must do in 30 consecutive days. Some people do photography, others do drawing, and many just does random things for 30 days. As for my 30-Day Challenge, I took it from here. And so here's the list.
The reason why I have chosen to do the writing or the 30-Day Blog Challenge is because I want to improve my writing skills and I want to share more things through my blog. You know, just getting used to writing and sharing. I really hope I don't miss out even a day on this challenge. And I'm looking forward to writing more than 200 words per post *fingers-crossed* I'll be starting this challenge on March 13th, which is today. But I'll be posting at the evening so when I have to talk about how my day went I'll have enough topics to talk about. I'm also planning to do more of these 30-Day Challenge but in different editions. Maybe photography, maybe talking about songs, or maybe if you have any suggestions, let me know :)

Well, off to bed now peeps. Buenas noches ~

Sunday Service - 10.03.2013

From emptiness to fullness!
Ruth 1
Mahlon: sickly
Chilion: weak or consumptive
Elimelech: my God is my King
God's blessing is progressive. Make sure there's King in our life!
Our God is a God of unusual kindness. Sow unusual kindness. Two outcomes of a process; better OR bitter. Which one are you? Our God is a God of fullness. Dalam Tuhan kita harus siap menerima kelimpahan.
1. Be committed! Make decisions!
There's always risk to commitment. Be a (calculated) risk-taker. Committed and decisive.
Eve: life-giver
Ruth 2
2. Be diligent!
Ruth 3
3. Be submitted!
Provision (supply), protection, promotion: qualities of a husband. Good, godly, gentle man.
Ruth 4
4. Be blessed! Blessed to bless
For thou art a holy people unto Jehovah thy God: Jehovah thy God hath chosen thee to be a people for his own possession, above all peoples that are upon the face of the earth. 
Jehovah did not set his love upon you, nor choose you, because ye were more in number than any people; for ye were the fewest of all peoples: 
but because Jehovah loveth you, and because he would keep the oath which he sware unto your fathers, hath Jehovah brought you out with a mighty hand, and redeemed you out of the house of bondage, from the hand of Pharaoh king of Egypt. 
Know therefore that Jehovah thy God, he is God, the faithful God, who keepeth covenant and lovingkindness with them that love him and keep his commandments to a thousand generations
Deuteronomy 7:6-9

Sunday Service - 03.03.13

how God anointed Jesus of Nazareth with the Holy Spirit and with power. He went about doing good and healing all who were oppressed by the devil, for God was with him.
Acts 10:38
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me
all the days of my life,
and I shall dwell in the house of the Lord
Psalms 23:6
"Shall follow me," follow in this context means to pursue, to hunt, just like a lion hunting a deer! Jangan tinggal di dalam comfort zone.
Tanda dipenuhi dengan kemurahan dan kebijakan:
1. Penuh dengan belas kasihan
Compassion : getting God's feeling that pushes us to do something
Jesus Cleanses a Leper
And a leper came to him, imploring him, and kneeling said to him, “If you will, you can make me clean.” Moved with pity, he stretched out his hand and touched him and said to him, “I will; be clean.” And immediately the leprosy left him, and he was made clean.
Mark 1:40-42
Kepada Tuhan perlu PASSION, tapi kepada sesama perlu COMPASSION
2. Mujizat menjadi bagian hidup kita
And these signs will accompany those who believe: in my name they will cast out demons; they will speak in new tongues; they will pick up serpents with their hands; and if they drink any deadly poison, it will not hurt them; they will lay their hands on the sick, and they will recover.”
Mark 16:17-18
Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”
Matthew 11:28-30
Mentalitas kerajaan ditandai dengan Lemah Lembut dan Rendah Hati, Lemah lembut : power under control, rendah hari : tidak memaksakan kehendak pribadi tapi mengijinkan kehendak Tuhan terjadi

Hope in Death

1 Thessalonians 4:13-14
But we do not want you to be uninformed, brothers, about those who are asleep, that you may not grieve as others do who have no hope. For since we believe that Jesus died and rose again, even so, through Jesus, God will bring with him those who have fallen asleep.
1. Eternal Home 2 Corinthians 5:11
The Ministry of Reconciliation
Therefore, knowing the fear of the Lord, we persuade others. But what we are is known to God, and I hope it is known also to your conscience.
2 Corinthians 5:10
For we must all appear before the judgment seat of Christ, so that each one may receive what is due for what he has done in the body, whether good or evil.
2. Reward
Ephesians 6:8
knowing that whatever good anyone does, this he will receive back from the Lord, whether he is a bondservant or is free.
1 Corinthians 15:51-52
Behold! I tell you a mystery. We shall not all sleep, but we shall all be changed, in a moment, in the twinkling of an eye, at the last trumpet. For the trumpet will sound, and the dead will be raised imperishable, and we shall be changed.
3. Tubuh Kemuliaan


Happy Birthday to my half,
forever my most favorite sister,
whom I love to the bones,Chrisya Keren F Sabaru!
Nothing but the best for you,
for your thesis,
for your studies,
for your career and for everything!

Cause God's goodness and mercy shall follow you all of your days. 

Your one and only,
chubby bubby fatty sister,

greeting created using Phoster.

Hi, February!

It's been awhile since I last blogged (about my personal life). The last time was when my parents came to Jakarta, and I pretty much just posted pictures of the shoe they bought me. Well after that I was busy with assignments and the American Culture Week, and of course preparing my trip back home (⌒▽⌒)☆  Since a lot has happened, now I'm gonna try to share each and every one of it.

1. Language Department HOT - For December, we went to Cafe Strawberry in the midst of our busy-ness. It was a very happy moment, knowing I have such great staff and goofy they all are even though most of them are girls! Cute eh?

2. Binus  Entrepreneurship Week - In my third semester, I have this subject called ENTREPRENEURSHIP. Our class was divided into groups and we were asked to start a business, an innovative. My teammates, Ghea, Ninda, Dea, Edu, and I decided to produce an agenda that is created specially for BINUSians.

3. Andrich & Arie's Wedding - This was a wedding that my mom had taken care of decoration of, both the Holy Matrimony and the reception. And I must say her work is stunning! She made it looked like it was held outside of Indonesia, and thankfully the bride and groom were very happy with the decoration. As for me, I helped singing in the wedding, even though only one song, because I didn't really have the time to practise. Infact, that one song that I sang, I practised it with the musician before the wedding!

Oh btw, for those of who are also stunned by mom's work, and would like her to do your event's decoration, just contact her at sally.toli@gmail.com or you can comment in this post ^-^

4. Christmas & New Year's - Well as usual, on Christmas and New Year's we went to church, and just spent most of the time as a family. I just love those quality times. Forever my treasure :)

5. American Culture Week - WHOA! Finally this event is held! After months of preparation, it was finally held from Jan 9th - Jan 12th. I just hope that my staffs and my hard work paid off on the event, also the other committee's hard work. Bravo peoples!

6. FLOOD!! - Unfortunately Jakarta went through some hard days just a few weeks ago where the rain had pour down real heavy and some places were isolated because of the flooding!

7. In-Between-Exam-Getaway - So actually me and Ghea planned to go to Grand Indonesia to join the Trick Art Exhibition, but when we got there, the queue was……. SUPER LONG! There were about 200 people maybe. And we were sickened by it. So…. we decided to sit at Churreria and just had our occasional ridiculous talks there. And after that we went to Funworld to do the photo box.